Rough week.

This week had its shares of challenges and victories.  My biggest challenge was getting past this mental blockage that was tormenting my ability to see as clearly as I have been since January.  I suppose after being so mindful of what you eat and how you establish a new relationship with food it is so routinized that all the other crap that prevented you from having such a positive relationship with food is forgotten. 

Trip to memory lane...

I have been dieting since I was 15.  My aunt was a yo-yo dieter.  Tuna diet. Egg diet. Atkins. Cabbage diet.  Aloe vera diet. pills. teas.  All these diets were quick fixes.  Suddenly my relationship with food became adversarial.  I associated what tasted good with what is bad for me and what tasted bad with what is good for me.

I lost a ton of weight in college, too fast, too soon.  And I gained it all back after two years, and then some. 

Although this was not the case this past week, I was convinced that I was not going to lose weight this week.  Even though I continued to work out, count points and ensure that I was committing to the boundaries and goals that I have set for myself I kept telling myself, this is not going to work.   I DON'T KNOW WHY! 

I think it is because I eat good food.  Good food that is good for me.  I don't feel like I am on a diet.  I just feel like I am keeping track of what I eat.  It feels good.  Sure I need to be a clean eater just like Cake for Wife who I am completely inspired by-by the way. And yes there is a correlation between eating cleaner and better results.  However, all of this knowledge did not matter.

I have been in the 200s for so long now that I had already come to terms that I was always going to be the chunky chick with the cute face.  I have been in the 200s for the greater part of 8 years.  For two years in my adult life I was 170-190 lbs. 

Ever since I started WW, I have not felt the sudden urge to devour an entire dark chocolate bar after eating a tofu salad.  It just does not make sense to me anymore.  I don't indulge in things I know are going to make my body feel awful.  It is as if this has become a science.  I keep track of the data, the trends and I make modifications accordingly.  It is brilliant. I am a data-driven person.  The numbers mean something. 

But I guess the greater question is how did I get past it?  Simple.  I set goals.  I made commitments to myself that superseded my own trepidations about my progress, and of course, there are systems in place that I have committed to that do not allow me to go astray.  This is what got me through my blockage.  I can see the 190s now that the clouds are gone.   

How do you get past the mental blockages...